watch this…it’s lyrics are very meaningful…it’s her recently written song…the lyric was posted at my previous post.

what i can remember
is a lot like water
trickling down a page
of the most beautiful colors
i can’t quite put my finger
down on the moment
that i became like this…

you see i am the bravest girl
you will ever come to meet
yet i shrink down to nothing
at the thought of someone
really seeing me
i think my heart is wrapped around
and tangled up in winding weeds

but i dont wanna go on living
being so afraid of showing
someone else my imperfections
and even though my feet
are trembling
and every word i say
comes stumbling
i will bare it all… watch me unfold
unfold

these hands that i hold
behind my back are
bound and broken
by my own doing
and i can’t feel
anything anymore
i need a touch to remind me
i’m still real

but i dont wanna go on living
being so afraid of showing
someone else my imperfections
and even though my feet
are trembling
and every word i say
comes stumbling
i will bare it all… watch me unfold
unfold

my soul
it’s dying to be free
you see.. i can’t live the rest of my life
so guarded
it’s dying to be free
it’s up to me to choose…
what kind of life i lead

but i dont wanna go on living
being so afraid of showing
someone else my imperfections
and even though my feet
are trembling
and every word i say
comes stumbling
i will bare it all… watch me unfold
unfold

i will allow someone to love me
i will allow someone to love me.

and conformity,

make your own statement.

Honor your own truth.

Have the courage to be yourself;

risk, speaking your own thoughts

and claiming your emotions.

Share your vulnerabilities,

fears, doubts, and insecurities;

let others experience the real you.

Have the courage to be yourself,

and realize that you are

a wonderful person.

While walking in Queensbay and deciding what to eat for lunch, I ran into Adrienne, who aparently helping out her relative to run a newly opened restaurant called “Chun”, a nyonya cuisine restaurant, right opposite Jaya Jusco basement level. At the same time, my dad met his friend who was dining in the restaurant, saying “this is highly recommended” while pointing to the food he was eating. So, we decided to give it a shot. And there we go, cramping ourselves into the restaurant as it was crowded and the space was a little small. But hey, it’s just a start. Who knows, it might extend bigger next time.

Munching food. Hey, look at the camera la!

That’s better…(but still munching food in mouth)

Then…Ruth and me reaching out for something on the table at the same time….

My dad ordered curry chicken with baguette…he said the chicken taste nice and tender, the baguette is crispy

Rachel ordered Koay Teow Th’ng

While Ruth ordered chicken nasi lemak, and I ordered prawn set nasi lemak. We also ordered otak-otak, and it was fresh from the stove or oven (or whatever they use to make it) and it’s delicious!

We ate, ate, and ate, till we totally forgot to take pictures of the food we ordered before we eat it…

Btw, Rachel’s food and my dad’s baguette came quite late. When I finished mine, then only their food arrived. Adrienne apologized to us numerous time, saying that she’s very busy. Then another worker came and asked how’s everything for a few times…all we said was…”ok, ok, good!”, and got back to our feast.

Since my dad’s baguette arrived later than his curry chicken, we had to wait for him to finish his food. So, while waiting…here are the results of me and Rachel’s boredom…..

Oops, wrong angle!

Just like normal posts….and then….

Weird faces….

Then, I decided to secretly take Adrienne’s picture while she’s working….
I thought I missed her cuz she was standing by the door (where the blue shirt lady standing) when I looked back. Then, I realized she had walked to the right..the girl with green shirt and long hair….

Another secret picture of her…

Heheeeee, memang Chun!

p/s: notice me and Rachel’s different appearance compared to last time(I will be posting old pictures in the near future)…now we had new spectacles(squarish with frame) and also new hair style (me:side parting instead of middle parting; rachel:short and straight front hair combed down).

Nervous was I even before I stepped into E&O Hotel for my grade 6 practical exam. The exam was supposed to be at 4.25pm but I ended up doing the exam earlier than that, and finished at 4.26pm! that’s because the previous students finished earlier, so the time is quite early. At the waiting room (right in front of the lifts), I kept rubbing my hands to keep them warm as I can’t play with frozen fingers. A mother who waited for her daughter through the exam chatted with me and encouraged me not to be nervous. My nervousness level gone a lower until her daughter came out from the examination room. It’s my turn.

The examiner, Robert, a Caucasian, white hair and taller than me is a friendly person. I started off with playing scales, and I screw up some of them. When asked to play C# melodic minor, I didn’t play correctly as I was nervous. I requested for a re-try about 3 times but still can’t get it right. What was I thinking? I remembered back home I practiced very hard at the last hour getting all the scales right, and now? It’s all wrong! So I gave up and apologized. But the examiner was kind enough, he said never mind and gave me another one…which I don’t quite remember already right now. Then when he asked me to play a B flat minor arpeggios left hand, i played B minor instead, then he corrected me, saying he requested for a B flat minor and not B minor. Again, I apologized, and gave him what he requested.

The three exam pieces was quite alright, just a note or two that was wrong. I feel that my sight reading was quite okay, just that I did not follow the dynamics, and I played a few wrong notes.

When it comes to aural, the first part which was singing from memory (the examiner play first, and then i sing what he played based on what I remembered when he played) there was slightly wrong notes at the ending part. Then, the next is singing from sight, whereby I’m supposed to sing the melody based on the written notes given (the taugeh notes). Well, as usual, got some mistakes. The third part whereby I’m supposed to identify the cadence was okay(cadence=the type of chords), and lastly, was answering questions based on the piece he played. When asked which period was the piece in, I answered classical period, and when he asked why i said so, I began to think that it should be from the Romantic period but I thought to myself that if I say I changed my answer, then that wouldn’t be good, so I still stick to my answer Classical period, and said it is because it is melody against accompaniment when it is not. I remembered that the bass part was played one note by one note and I feel that this piece is expressive..so, another BIG mistake i guess…because obviously I think it’s not from the Classical period but the Romantic period…I did not think properly before answering…sigh…(cuz i don’t wanna take so long time to answer his questions, as advised by my teacher saying that I must not hesitate to answer)…

After that was over, i wished him “have a nice day” and he replied thank you and have a nice day for the whole weekend. Well, he’s kind of nice and friendly and is calm, unlike me, feeling so nervous. Moreover, he opened the door for me as I head towards the door. However, reflecting back when I was playing my three exam pieces, I began to enjoy myself and feel less tense.

Anywayz…it’s all over already…no point thinking it or worrying all the faults I made…I’ll just wait for the results in approximately two weeks time…but I think I’ll surely pass the exam one lah…

About the trip to E&O Hotel? I drove there all by myself..my elder sister Ruth can’t follow me because she had appointment with her friends for a birthday celebration, my mother is busy taking care of Felix (my mom babysits). The car park within the E&O Hotel building cost me RM 5. Well, I can’t expect much because it’s a hotel. I walked quite a distance from the car park to the hotel lobby and the pavement was creepy as I was the only person walking there, so I was very cautious and pay attention to my surroundings. After the exam, I leave immediately.

Few things I remembered about this event is that this hotel overlooks the sea and the beach, so, the piano in the exam room was facing towards the window and thus outlooking the beautiful sight of the sea and blue sky…such beauty…The examiner, as I mentioned earlier, is a friendly person, and he makes eye contacts whenever speaking to me…as I recalled my previous exams, the examiner hardly look at me and make eye contact…

But hey, about throwing my grade 6 piano book, it’s just for the sake of releasing tension and it’s not for real..hehe…the books aren’t cheap….you may ask my dad…

Well, because of today’s dissapoinment (consumer behaviour paper), i’m gonna set my mind to never last minute study from next semester on..i will try to commit myself to do little little things daily with consistency and not waiting till the last hour and rush everything through…same goes to assignments and projects…NEVER AGAIN!!!